Jobs!

So it's about that time, and I'm applying for jobs. And I'm super nervous!!! I really want to stay teaching at the same place I've been interning, but I'm worried that my hopes are too high. I need to make sure I work super hard this week in order stay organized and motivated. I desperately want this job, and I know I'm perfect for it. But I just need to figure out how to sell myself!

At least I've been able to apply to five jobs thus far. Maybe it'll get my mind off of one specific school and thinking more about other schools. Although, let's be honest, I really already have my heart set. At least I've been organized enough to get those applications together, right?

One of the things I need to deal with is my certification. The DOE website is being weird and telling me I can't reapply for the same license. So I'm super confused. I guess I'll have to call them soon to figure that out. And I'm worried about how my crazy roommate situation will come up during job interviews. There's just too much for me to be stressed about right now!

I'm also really worried because neither my internship or my graduate program ever really taught me how to do lesson plans. And at my school, we collaboratively write a lot of the curriculum. So I don't have many "lesson plans" that are my own. So I'm not sure what I'm supposed to pull to put in my portfolio as I apply to jobs.

I'm also worried about decorating my portfolio or whatever. I want to make sure it stands out, but I also want to make sure it's genuine. I don't want to put some cheesy quote on there that makes me look stupid. So how do I make myself stand out without being ridiculous?

In general, I'm feeling very stressed and overwhelmed by the job search. I guess in part, it's my own fault for putting so much pressure on myself to get this one job. But there's not much I can do about it now that I have my heart set on it. I'm rethinking everything I've done all year and realizing that I haven't been living up to my full potential. I haven't been able to try the new things I've been wanting to try, and I haven't been able to do anything particularly amazing or incredible with my students. In short, I don't feel that I've done a very good job. So it's hard to get my confidence up so I can sell myself! Goodness gracious, I hope I survive this week!